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Im in extreme pain currently. Some old wounds have recently decided to resurface again and is completely miserable.



Ok heres the story:



A few years ago, my stupid ass was walking down a road with 2 other people in front of me in a single file line. "it was hunting time"

A drunk driver came SPEEDING around a curve and decided instead of swerving away from us...they swerved directly into us.



And with me being in the back of the line, I got the worst end of that stick.



The front of the vehicle struck me sending me sliding down the passenger side of it from front bumper to outer rearview mirror.



The mirror caught me hard. It split my back open and caused serious muscle and tissue damage to my left shoulder blade and collarbone areas.



When the mirror hit me it spun me around on my feet for 3 full turns before my ass landed on the ground 2 inches from the ditch. As soon as my ass hit the ground I was back on 2 feet and chasing after the damn vehicle. Nearly "blacked out" and dizzy as all fuck, I was still hauling ass after the vehicle.



Well the people I was with decided to trick me into going to the ER and getting me all patched up (against my will)



The thing that pissed me off the most about that hit and run was the fact that it shredded up my brand new TShirt that I just got.



I couldnt care less about getting hit, Pain I can usually handle. And that night I think I handled it very well. Of course I was laughing about it the next morning. :/ yes, I am a fuckin oddball.



But...It tore my shirt damnit!



so anyhow I recovered from it and did what I had to do...Get Over It and Move On In Life.

Thats what I did.



After only 2 days of healing I was back out and about lifting heavy shit and all that lovely stuff.



Last year, sometime back in '05 I was at my (last) job doing lab work and testing for big oil companies. Well, unforunately that job included 10 to 12 hours a day and for the most part lifting some thick heavy GLASS stuff. They called me the "Work Mule" b/c I was the only female in there that could lift more than 50 lbs at once. haha



And yes I pushed myself past my limits there. BIG MISTAKE ON MY PART. I'm finally paying for it all now. The aftermath has officially caught up with me.



So one day at work my (yes-stupid ass) decided to get things done a little "faster" by carrying even more than the nornal weight of reinforced glass stacks.



After I had the glass in my arms carrying it half way across the building, I felt the pain. And I do mean PAIN.



I hear a very loud popping and tearing sound like someone ripping a Tshirt in half right off of their body. I feel the muscles in my back and shoulder tear with sudden force.



So I walked a little quicker thinking "what the fuck" sat all the stacks of glass in their riteful spot on the shelves.......



The muscles tore again, sending a heatwave through my body. That shit made me dizzy, and hot and felt like I was gonna puke.

Then came the shockwave of PAIN that sent me to my knees. I actually had tears flowing this time.



Sat there till I wasnt dizzy anymore and went back to work. Went home that day and told my family what happened. They said ohh its proberbly just a pulled muscle.

So I shrugged it off. I worked damn near 2 weeks after that, coninuously tearing the same damn muscle before I actually broke down and went to the doctor.



By the time I got to the Doc. He couldnt even touch my back without me flenching away. So he gave me 2 shots in it to kill the pain and told me I desperately needed Therapy for it.



Never got the Therapy for it.



Hey good thing about it was I got ALOT of time off of work. I was happy. heheh



Ever since then, every now and then if I move my arm the wrong way, I feel alot of pressure n that spot and it hurts. So I lay down in bed to rest, wake up and its much better..no pain.



Now recently, it has flaired up alot the last few days. Even laying down resting does NOT help it at all anymore.



Im in constant pain. It used to be on and off occasionally. Now its all day every day and all night every night.



I cant sleep. No matter which way I lay down, it hurts like a M'Fukker.



If I sit up... it hurts. No matter what I do.. it hurts.



Im not one to bitch and complain about pain. Im the oddball that enjoys pain both mentally and physically.



This is the first time Pain has not been some kind of pleasureable for me. And this is strange.

I cant hardly bare it.



Theres only one soultion to this problem and Im not willing to do it. That is if I get my ass back on a plane and get back to Louisiana and get my ass in therapy.



That would also be quite pointless. Considering Now I believe is too late for any help.

I do not see therapy helping this at all..only hurting worse.



Icyhot, bluegel, hot patches and heating pads DO NOT do jack shit to relieve any pain. Nor does any tylenol or shit like that.

Leave it to me to be in a place where I cant find any fuckin pain pills that will help.



Theres gotta be something though........

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drome
02:49 Aug 29 2009

as though i remember this very well

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Friday night we caught a quick bite to eat and headed out to a local bar, had some fun, drank beer and played pool, then spent the rest of the night cuddling and watching movies till we fell asleep.



Saturday was fun. we woke up, went grocery shopping and all that lovely stuff.

Then we went to the mall. That was great, Loki ended up (against my will) buying some really cool, nice things for me.

He got me a new KORN t-shirt. He also bought us very similar lether wallets...mine is a KORN wallet and he got a ICP wallet.



After the mall we caught Kain's new movie...SEE NO EVIL. That was awesome. Very good movie. We really enjoyed it.



Then we went out to eat at a very nice, expensive restaurant on the water that had valet parking and all that high-class richy schtuff.

Came home, and cuddled till we passed out.



Sunday. Sunday started off great.

Loki and I woke up, and we went back to the mall, and had some pro pics taken of us together...they came out sooo cute.

Then we came back, did what we had to do around here, and all was going fine and dandy untill I made a phonecall.



I called my parents back in Louisiana to check on everyone. Unfortunately I got some really bad news.



They told me they had to put my dog to sleep because he was fighting a really bad case of heartworms, and he was so far gone, that they could not do anything about it. So they put him down.

After awhile when i finally stopped ballin my eyes out, I called my parents back and told them to go ahead and get rid of the puppy I had too.

Told them to send him to a good home, no shelters.



So now, I have no dogs left. I have no friends back in Louisiana.



All I have there are my parents, and my son.



So, as far as this is looking, Cali for now may just as well be my new home, untill Loki's job takes us on other travel adventures.



Live wild and free, fly with the wind, and thus far, where ever I lay my head is home.

So, now that its Friday. Its been 1 week since I've been here in Cali.

Everything is going excellent.



I wake up every morning a little after 5 am to fix Loki's hair for him while we talk and cuddle and whine because neither of us wants to part from the other. It damn near takes his co-worker to drag him away from me so he can make it to work on time. lol He's sooo adorable.



We do what we have to do during the day. When he gets off of work, its the best. He comes straight in and hugs and kisses me and tells me how much he missed me for the day and how much he loves and absolutely adores me.

Of course I agree, and tell him the same.



He called me today for his lunch break, and told me to make plans so we can go have some fun again this weekend. Theres so much to do.

Im sure we'll be doing quite abit.



Theres at least 2 movies that we want to see this weekend, See No Evil, and some other one - I forgot.



Loki's dying to take me to the mall so we can go shopping and get us abunch of cool stuff. (even though I hate malls, and hate shopping in general) I'm sure it will still turn out fun.



I'm sure we'll end up going out to a local bar and playing pool and drinking beer...Thats always NIIICE. I love playing pool and drinking beer! ;)



We have soo much in common, it makes our weekends alot of fun.



Well thats the plans for this weekend. I'll post more on what we actually do though...(and some info I'll have to keep to myself....LOL) :evil grin:

Saturday night was fun.

Loki brought me out to check out DV8.



I got to meet a few very interresting people.

Iceman, Psykosteel, Lil Meow, Master Liam, Bullwhip, and a few others.



Master Liam was quite interresting. After taking the time to hold a few nice conversations with me, he decided to have his pet, Lil Meow (who is now excitedly collared) lay out the "steps" for me. Which was all quite interresting.



I held a few good conversations with Psykosteel, and Iceman...those 2 guys are cool as hell, and funny.



Iceman kept telling me how cute I was (and jokingly said that i was too cute for Loki) lol He's a trip! I'm glad I met him.



Psykosteel talked with me and Loki for awhile about tatoos and piercings and such. He's cool.



Lil Meow is amazing. Not only is she completely beautiful, but she can take a good beating. That chick can handle alot of pain. I can totally respect that. And me and her got along great, she's so sweet, and was very nice to me as well.

I usually dont get along with other females, but this one is fuckin cool.



I watched a firedancer. And a few girls getting rope suspended while doing "fireplay" at the same time.



I checked out the various rooms and such.



It was all cool as hell. A completely different life than I'm used to. But I love it.







That was my saturday night. It's been a blast so far. :)

I love Cali.



I'm far from my typical swamplands in Louisiana, but this place is great.



I flew in Friday night, we went out Saturday night, chilled in Sunday. It's been good so far.



Loki and I are getting along sooo good.

I missed him soo much and apparently he's missed me as well.



He still cant believe I actually left my home to come stay with him. But I did. I wanted to.

I missed him alot. And now we have the chance to actually be together and have a damn good relationship that doesnt span over a few thousand miles away.



He wants me to stay. So I shall. He said I can stay as long as I'd like...well, with an offer like that I may not be going home.



So I figured, if all continues to go well, I may just do that...stay and fly back to Louisiana occasionally to visit friends, family, and mainly my son.



For the most part I love it out here. Its great to finally have a change in scenery. Im not much for big cities, but I think I can handle this, considering having Loki right next to me holding me constantly, everything will be just fine.

I have recently landed in Cali, So far everything is EXCELLENT. I'm fully enjoying this place more than I thought I would.



This place is amazing.



Most importantly, I'm with LOKI. Everything is going great between us. I am more than happy.



I'll be posting more when I can.

Very soon I will be leaving the comforts of home here in the swamplands and heading out west to California so I can once again be with Loki.



My flight out of here is schedualed for May 12.



The anticipation is killing me! :)